Another year older

So… It’s been quite a while since I’ve written something. Part of it is laziness, part of it is not being inspired

 Since weekday yung birthday ko, nagkaroon lang kami ng mini celebration.Just to celebrate my day!

My friends are the sweetest 5ever!

Here some of the pictures to my 18th birthday party at my grandma's house.

Celebration at Shakey's with some of my friends.

Sa totoo lang I'm not expecting na magiging ganoon kasaya yung birthday ko.Seriously, I thought I will spent december 13th lonely and unhappy.But I was wrong I literally can't contain my happines,I feel so special during that day.I'm so blessed to have a friends and family like them.Thank you Lord for a year full of your grace! Lifting everything up to you.

 ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

  Love always,

-- M xx

#Forever17

This is the last time I'll blog as a 17 yrs. old girl. My last day as a minor! I feel liked I just turned 16 yesterday. Time flies so fast. It's been a weird ride,and I felt like I haven't done any crazy shit! Something that would perfectly describe YOLO!

So I guess goodbye 17 years! Here's to a new f*cking decade.

 ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

  Love always,

-- M xx

2k13 Christmas/Birthday Wishlist

Konnichiwa December!My birthday is coming up in less than a week.And it's just 20 days to go,until Christmas time.This is my birth month but the main reason why I love December because it's the last month of the year and then we start a new year,and also Christmas is just around the corner.

As I was thinking about writing a wishlist as a new blog post,and man!Here goes the list:

I.

Doc Martens (combat boots black)

I have been in love with these boots for a very long time.I admired them from a distance, I wouldn't have even dared to ask my PARENTS, the boots I wanted were to far expensive.Doc Martens are too expensive for my life.

II.

Chuck Taylor Slim

I'm under the spell of KStew and Saab Magalona's style.As Kirsten Stewart is the converse queen,I love seeing her sporting sneakers with an elegant dress.(If you remember the twilght movie,Bella wears a blue prom dress together with her black chuck taylor)

III.

Iphone 5c

Since my beloved Samsung galaxy S got stolen at Manila.The 2 years was pure happiness for me until this happened.Pls!Someone with a big heart,can I have an Iphone 5c for christmas??

IV.

Sharpies

I want lots of sharpies.All kinds of sharpies.I may not be creative in any way imaginable,but Hey who knows.I might be artistic while using these babies.

V.

A library!WHAT? New books..

I'm planning to read new books and try different genres like classics,literary works, etc.To improve my writing skills and vocabulary.And ofcourse to escape in this cruel world.

VI.

Typewriter

I wanted to have this since like forever.

VII.
Haircut

This is what I want to give myself on my 18th birthday.. A haircut. I remember the moment I said (I would cut my hair short when I turned 18) so I guess,I'm ready nah!

I'm dying to have these babies!!*crying

So how about you?What's on your wishlist??

Merry Christmas!!HOHOHO

                                ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
                               Love always,                                 -- M xx

November Vibes

Ano ba ulit ang mga kaganapan sa month na ito??Okay, First day of school.It was not great but not very bad either.New faces,new professors, at mga bagong ugali na naman na pakikisamahan.And there's no one cute,gwapo,pogi!Just saying... hahaha 

Anyway, last Nov.3 na-meet ko na ulit si Kisses and I must say na sobrang namiss ko sya.So almost 5hrs kaming nagkwentuhan sa isang tea shop kasama si Mic-mic.Sana matuloy yung mga plans namin na gala ngayong december.*fingers crossed*

 I spent most of my times trying to be busy on some things which are on top of my priority list (if I have one! jk). School has been making me busy and really tired everyday. It’s okay. I’m loving this kind of pressure and pain.Weird tho.

Tapos ano pa ba??Aaah,umalis na yung aunt and uncle ko kasama yung apo nila na si Ban-ban.Balik probinsya na ulit,nag stay sila dito for 2 weeks.At sobrang mamimiss ko si Baban!!

Then Nov 30,I had a great day with my friends.For the celebration of Hannah's 18th birthday,kumain kami ng lunch sa Shakeys at nanood ng movie.I'm very glad na kahit may mga bagong kaibigan na ako at sila ngayon,our friendship hasn't changed.Sabi nga ni Tita Iwi"the original bff's"

Sobrang bilis ng panahon ngayon,sana parang movie na lang ang buhay na pwedeng i-stop pag sobrang nasasaktan ka na,i-pause pag gusto mong tumigil ang mundo kasi sobrang saya mo at i-pastforward para makita mo yung mga outcome ng naging desisyon mo kaso hindi eh.Hindi..

 ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

  Love always,

-- M xx

02:56 PM ~ 10/19/2013

I'm glad that I'm able to rest na.After the whole month of stress and eveything,we all deserved a break.But then,still there are things that I need to accomplish this sembreak,huhuhu!So much happened to me this week,well you're probably wondering what's it,but it will take a long time to make a long story short.Although I like being busy, I just don’t like being too tired all the time. It’s okay. Part of life!Oh, how I wished that I can confide in this blog completely but I guess there's such things need to stay private.I want to share out all kinds of things that lie burried deep in my heart...but it's just between me and my journal.Ugh. I guess?Anyways, I'm officially enrolled for the next sem!But seriously,nothing's new,this school is killing me.LOL jk!

Okay,I still have to do something. Have a great day, dear friends!

                                ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

                                  -M xx

Debut,every girls DREAM. Right?

 One of the most important year of a young filipina's life is debut.It could be a fairy-tale like,masquearde,fashion show inspired or a pool party.

It's every girl's dream to feel like a princess even if it is for just one night.And ofcourse it makes you feel so loved  that you are reminded on how beautiful you are.Everyone's treating you like a princess and you are so special in every way even for a day.And all of a sudden the small spot of rejection,loneliness,hatred in your heart will completely replaced by wonderful feeling that makes you feel so alived.

 Though some of us don’t want to be the center of the attraction cause we’re too shy yet we want to have our own debut.Since I was a child,I've been wanting a debut.I remember,I even told my parents to prapare money because I want to have a big celebration just for one day.I even told them that I wouldn't enter relationship just to have that celebration I've been dreaming for since forever.

Well now things changed,before when I'm just an innocent kid I'm dying to have a mini debut for my 7th birthday.Well as I grow older, life’s not easy.I  really don’t like to be the center of attraction, seriously. I am afraid that people will judge me or I can’t accommodate my guest, like that thing.I'm anxious that it would turned out to be a biggest diasater in a lieu of blast celebration.I have million thoughts racing through my head, there are many silly possibilities and negative what if's.Though seriously,I don't want a party and my aunts always made me kulit about their different ideas in my birthday.Seems they are more excited than I am.

My dad went abroad to let me and my siblings go into school and they paid a lot now.Though my mom asked me if I want a debut, first I hesitate but then I told her I want one well I'm not throwing a lavish party to celebrate my 18th birthday.At first I decided it was time to make my European holiday a dream come true.I want to spend my special day in Paris,London or Amsterdam either.But sadly,we are not that rich to handle the entire tour expenses.My mom even asked me that If I really want to travel  ,HongKong Disneyland would be cheaper rather than Eurpoean tour.And yes she give me a small hope and I wouldn't mind going to disneyland .I'm always young at heart!

But now I think what she's saying is unlikely to happen.Especially in this coming months we have to start saving money because of enrollment and christmas season.Expenses seem to add up anywhere.It hurts me alot thinking It will be an ordinary day on my 18th birthday. It hurts alot.

I don't want to grow up yet. I just want to get out of here.I know for sure it's just another ordinary lonely day.Can’t Peter Pan come knock on my window and take me away to Neverland? I wanna spend my special day there,were I can make YOLO adventures.I  want to escape and not think, and just disappear.I'm just tired being tortured by my own mind.

PS:Lord let your will be done.

PPS:While scrolling in my timeline,this qoute suddenly caught my attention! "SILENCE IS THE MOST POWERFUL SCREAM"

 ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

  Love always,

-- M xx

First Sem Rants and Sembreak thoughts//

IT'S SEMBREAK,baby!Hallelujah,Amen!!Which only means more hangouts,more time to stay up late,more food,more books and more happiness.Isn't it odd before I just posted how my first day of school was and now it's about to end.

This semester,I made a lot of friends not only in our block but also in my other sections.Also it's hard dealing with exams,waking up early,commuting is more difficult and life itself.All these stress and furstrations I had bottled up and kept inside my body are now gradually vanishing.Thank you,Lord.All praise in you!

With the Bitches.It's funny we all met in first day of school,we became friends and all I know even if next sem we're all not blockmates anymore the friendship will never be erase.I will never get tired listening in their pointless dramas all over again.

Beware of the Bitches:Me,Engelen,Joella,M's,Aira and Shem!!

"Get in looser,we're going shopping!"

"On wednesday's we wear pink."

"You can't sit with us!"

My other sisters,from my bar class.This girls are fun to be with and we are so called the "isip bata" everytime we're having our bar classes because we're all not fan of drinking.

Thus, being away from each one of them is the hardest thing. Moreover, when I came to think of it, I only have few friends at home (yes my life). Sure thing, life without them crazy bunch is B-O-R-I-N-G !

Jocelyn,Me,Ann,Sandra,and Mel.

Cyra and Rodeza are not here in this picture maybe because they we're busy looking around for cute guys!

 I have here the list of the things I want to do this sembreak!!!

So, this is just kind of a reminder for me on the few weeks to come. <3

Hopefully this one works out,I have a feeling it will!

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

  Until then,

-- M xx

A Bit of Everything//

 

Bonjour mon ami!I'm baaaackk!!!

The month of september took the heck out of me.Warning!This blog is too boring to read kasi super haba since ngayon lang ulit ako nagbalik.It contains the random stuffs happened to me this month of September.

 

First,our most awaited mock service was held in Le Cafe.So yeah.I'm the host of this function or should I say the receptionist.I feel so anxious,syempre first time eh.Pero enjoy na lang kahit 3 hrs nakatayo with that killer pumps,sabi nga ng prof namin smile lang kahit super pagod na.And I feel so blessed that I was given these opportunity,though mas feel ko maging server kahit mahirap,feel ko kasi mas ramdam mo yung flow ng operation.Kaya ayun tiis ganda akong nakatayo,afterwards we devoured all the left foods.At super saya ng experience.It was all worth it,the efforts and long patience we insert in this function,worth it ng makita na masaya yung mga guest lumabas.

Star City with the gang.

Actually,it was unexpected trip.Sinabi ng Prof namin na kailangang manood kami ng play sa Aliw theatre dahil project namin yun.Edi yun because of the disscount at malapit lang naman gora agad kami,we didn't think twice.During the play my mouth was left hanging as in literally hanging Hahaha jk.Grabe nakakaspeechless yung mga ballerina ang galing nila.They are portraying their character effectively to the audience.Idk, basta pagdating sa mga theatre plays sobrang favorite ko manuod,sobrang naaappreciate ko sya.World class nga yung galing nila eh.Kung pede nga lang i-video eh..

After the play,we hurried to star city.I can't contain the freakin excitement inside my body.We decided to eat first.After eating our late lunch.We first tried the carousel,and there's something in carousel na pag sumasakay ako tska yung ambiance,I find it romantic,well Idk..(Weird thoughts)

We tried the caterpillar,as you can see above biglaang picture yan ni Chi.Ang epic tuloy ng muka namin.HAHAHA,I'm so happy like a kid.LOL It rained that afternoon when we were there so as expected mas humaba yung pila inside kaya naubos yung time namin pagpila.Next blizzard,(not dairy queen) it's bit extreme,but nothing can beat space shuttle.After sumakay umuwi na nga agad si Chi at Nilline kasi naliyo and medyo gabi na din kasi.After blizzard,we tried vikings.I feel dizzy after taking this ride.I hate vikings,I wouldn't dare trying it again.As in never..ever..ever

Other attractions we tried are different horror houses na wala kaming ginawa kung hindi magharutan,harutan talaga?HAHAHA at tawanan.Kaya paglabas ng horror house muka kaming basang sisiw.

Look I made a new friends,blockmates sila nina Kim and Marbyn.Sina Regina on my side,yung sa right side si Irish at si Jackie is nageemote sa labas jk.They are fun to be with.Around 9pm naisipan namin na umuwi na,at 7 am pa ang pasok ko bukas sakto may report pa.Yeah,kaloka.At nakauwi ako ng bahay 10:30pm,perfect sabi kasi ni Mama wag daw ako magpapagabi.Lol

Past Forward to September 14,2013.

I'm falling to pieces.<//3

He's been there for me eversince,listening to my heartaches and dramas over life and capturing the surreal moments.Charot,ang drama ko.Almost 3yrs na din kasi kaming magkasama.Huhuhu!!Nawala lang naman kasi yung my-ever-loving cellphone.Na nagsasalaba sakin pag may awkward moments o kaya op ako.Ganito kasi yun naglalakad ako sa may Manila City Hall for our swimming classes tapos may humingi sakin ng piso sa likod,di ko pinansin naglakad lang ako ng mabilis.Tapos ayun since naka jansport ako syempre backpack nasa likod,pagtingin ko ng pocket bukas at wala na yung cp ko.As in napa shit shit shit tuloy ako.Haaay,kahinayang lang kasi yung laman nun yung ebooks,pictures at quotes.Pero buti nandyan yung blockmates ko para ikalma ako muntik na kasi ako magtantrums de joke.Yun lang sabi naman ni Mama cellphone lang yan madaling palitan ang buhay hindi.Okaaayy.Move on na din pero ayaw pa talaga mag sink in na wala na sya..... <//////3

Haryl's 18th.

Since that day birthday din ni Haryl.Medyo kahit papaano nawala yung hinanakit ko sa cellphone.I am very thankful to have them as friends kasi pinasaya nila ako though we don't see each other often,I am happy that things don't change.

The birthday celebrant!Yan yung pinatawa ni Ednapot si Haryl,sakto naman na nagpipicture ako.Perfect!Ang ganda nya noh?Sometimes,pag may napupuntahan akong event napapaisip ako paano kaya pag nagdebut ako??What if di maging masaya?What if di ko sila maaccommodate o What if di sila magenjoy?What if di pumunta yung mga ineexpect ko?What if?What if?Stupid What if's.

Don't mind my face,I just wanted to post this kasi minsan lang kami magkita ni Dianne Jemme after God knows what year.Gahd,I miss this girl,tingnan mo super ganda nya.Waaah,ang sexy ni Dianne.

Oui, j'aime mes amis.(I love my friends)

Mga 10 pm kami umuwi kasi kailangan ko na talaga umuwi dahil may seminar ako kinabukasan sa Antipolo.Eh 4 am,dapat nasa school ka na,diba super pasakit!Hmm..sana matuloy yung milk tea bonding namin!

Sunday "Seminar day"September 15,2013

Seminar @ Bosay resort in Antipolo!Along the way tinulugan ko lang yung katabi ko sa bus si Chi,habang nagbabasa sya ng Diary ng Panget.Until sa seminar natutulog din ako pag boring,pero may mga part na nakakatawa kaya nabubuhayan ako ng dugo.Sobrang antok talaga ksi ako biruin mo 2hrs lang tulog ko,muka tuloy akong walking zombie.

With Kuya Micu ang senior citizen ng classroom de jk lang,Cuaray ayaw nya kasi ng Francis,Nilline,Camille na super humble at bait,at si Chi!Mga 4pm na natapos yung seminar grabe noh 7am nagsimula.Tapos nun binigay na sa amin yung extra time hanggang 8pm para magswimming since nagkaroon ako, you know only-a-girl-can-understand problem.Di ako nag swimming kasama ko si Nilline na bantay sa cottage.Badtrip nga na-lowbat agad yung cam kaya onti lang yung pictures.Tindi nga nila balat kalabaw kasi super lamig noon at naulan nakukuha pa nilang magswimming,hindi naman obvious na inggit ako noh??Tapos asar talaga yung resort merong 13 pools na iba-ibang klase.Gusto ko pa naman i-try yung infinity pool at disco pool.Sa disco pool daw eh,parang disco talaga kumpleto may loud music tapos nagsasayawan talaga yung mga tao sa pool.Haay.nakakainggit!!!Then umuwi na kami,natulog ulit ako sa byahe hanggang pauwi.Sinundo naman ako nila Mama sa school kaya walang problema kahit late na!Mabuhay!HAHAHA

But yeah.Despite all these,I can say I survived the month.I may not have gone into detail with everything that I have went through, but yes, those things made me stronger and I wouldn’t be who I am if it wasn’t for those things. In a couple of days, we’ll be saying hello to October.Well, as for me, I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what happens next. But for my advance greeting for October, well, I guess I’ll just hope for it to be a good one and tell that month “Let’s rock the house, October Bring it on.”

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

 Love always,

--M xx

LOOK WHO'S BACK//

This was all shot by myself. It took a lot of time and effort fixing my cellphone and trying to find the correct angle for me to look good on the photos.Seriously next time I won't waste my time layering the books,to put my cellphone on the top of it.Though I have tripod and slr which my papa left,I'm still having a hard time using it. I should really use tripods next time for I can express myself a lot more than when I ask someone to take photos of me. Well, for me because I’m awkward with people and find it more comfortable and less awkward to pose in front of the camera! 

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

 UNTIL THEN,

-M XX

Hey!welcome to the world of seventeen.

Today I'm blogging about my dearest bestfriend!Carissa.I met her in our nene days in highschool and till college,we've been bestfriend eversince.I am so gratefeul that our friendship hasn't changed.♥I'd like to make a special post about this wonderful girl and the 17 reasons why she's the best ever.

1.She understands my language, and by that I mean my fangirl language.We have a fare share of differences and similarities which makes our friendship 10x awesomer!

2.Were both the laughing buddies in our circle of friends.She laughs at my joke even if it's too korni.

3.Giving her a look and she know what exactly I am thinking.Then after a second we both burst into hard laughter till our stomach hurts.

4.She's very supportive of me as I am very supportive of her. 

5.She's like a sister to me from another mother.She's actually better than a sister.Oh wait, no sibling rivalry.

6.Whenever I'm feeling down, Carissa knows how to get me back up on my feet!

7.She's weird.But hey she's my bestfriend which makes me weird too.

8.{This is my favorite part of our friendship}She's dreaming with me,even if our dreams include going to Paris,watching the New York fashion week live and having our own clothing line.

9.We don't look alike and we don't sound alike but we think almost the same way all the time.

10.She accepts for who I am.

11.Looking over at each other at the same time when we hear or see something crazy

12.She has the same passion as me and we both would spent our whole afternoon watching movie or reading.

13.Carissa's always full of fun.

14.She loves dressing up and doing girly things as much as I do.

15.We haave good moments and bad moments together.

16.I bet she's going to be a famous editor of a magazine, cooler than candy mag like New York's famous magazine Vogue or Runway

17.She turns seventeen today!

Once again,Happy birthday bestfriend!I love you.Continue to be a blessing to others and inspire other through your writing.Looking forward to making new memories(yolo adventures)with you!We shall make it happen.Always remember I'm always here for you and just a text/chat away.You deserve this amazing day,gorgeous girl!Love you so much Carissa!Hang when midterms end.(we have to be devoted in our studies okay.)♥

PS:I can't contain my excitement for Candy fair.

PPS:Seriously I have a great day today,thank you for the food,the laughs we shared and yung kwentuhan.

PPPS:Okay,this post was full of effort.I type this from the inner core of my heart and don't mind the errors or wrong grammar.HAHA.So, smile.Welcome to the world of seventeen!Being both happy and sad..and lonely.

'Mon ami' means my friend

Ang pagkakaibigan ay hindi pagsasapawan.Pagsasapawan kung sino ang pinaka matalino,pinaka maganda at ang pinaka mabait.Hindi ito kompetisyon na kailangan mong makipagsapawan.These are group of people jived and joined together who have same interests,share differences and learn from each other.Kaming magkakaibigan when we get together or minsan thru chat,we encourage and motivate each other with positive words and by talking to challenges and success.Basta masaya sa pakiramdam kapag nakakapagcontribute ka sa success ng kaibigan mo.Yung tipong achievement mo,achievement na rin namin..

Ang pagkakaibigan yan yung hinding-hindi ka iiwan kahit minsan ang hirap mo pakisamahan.Eto yung tanggap ka nila kahit anong mangyari.Iniintindi ka nila dahil sa mga PMS days mo.Even if makita nila yung tough-bitch persona mo di ka nila iiwan.O kahit masaksihan nila yung mga nakakaturn-off na gingawa mo asahan mo walang magbabago.Lagi mo lang tandaan a friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you.Totoo yan,promise..

Ang pagkakaibigan ay parang string ng gitara.Ikaw ang gitara at syempre kung walang string,walang tunog,matamlay ang buhay.Yung moment na magkakasama kami whatever things we have or we don't have make us feel complete.Tama na yung simpleng tawanan even if wala kaming camera sa harap namin,isa lang ang ibig sabihin nyan that shows the real us.Ganyan kami eh,yung tipong tawa ng isa nahahawa na ang lahat.Ansarap kaya magkaroon ng kaibigang laughmates they make you realize that life isn't complicated and how wonderful life is.All you habve to do is too laugh.Laugh out loud.

Ang pagkakaibigan ay takot magkalimutan.Were in our different career paths pero it does'nt cause na malimutan namin ang isat-isa.We make it a point na magkaroon kami ng contact,just call or text away.Kung mawalan man ng contact,I know for sure were still connected by our hearts.It means the memories last,even if contact is lost. Pero minsan may mga bagay na dapat munang mawala o sandaling maglaho just to miss what they've lost.Kasi kahit anong pagpupumilt mo na kaya mong wala sila,hindi mo magagawa kasi mahirap ng walang kasama.

At higit sa lahat ang pagkakaibigan ay yung mahal na mahal mo kahit di mo naman syota.HAHAHA!!Ganyan ko kasi kamiss ang mga kaibigan ko.Wala lang gusto ko lang sa kanila idedicate to.Ang saya kasi dahil natagpuan ko na ang tunay na kahulugan ng salitang pagkakaibigan.Alam nyo naman kung sino kayo,kaya sobrang pasasalamat ko kay Lord dahil okay lang wala akong boyfriend may mga kaibigan naman akong laging nandyan.Tulad nga ng lagi kong sinasabi,masaya ako kapag masaya ka.♥

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡
-M xx