Living the Dream

PART II American Dream

I worked hard, was tired, cried, laugh a lot,  and it was a lot of mixed and intense feelings.Now I can tell that I missed all of those things.

Waiting for the bus in the bus stop, waking up early to catch the bus, waiting for an hour beacause we missed the bus, cooking our own food, doing my own laundry, trying different kinds of food, the craziness in Room 205, my co-interns most especially the Team Butchokoy, my Embassy Suites family, hanging out at the mall, grocery shopping, being able to shop harder, unending selfies and photoshoots, movie marathon, trying out different flavors of Ben and Jerry's.I could write lots of pages full of the things I missed in the US.

With tita Baby, kababayan na nakilala namin sa Louisville,sobrang bait at accommodating ni Tita.Pinagluto nya pa nga kami ng sinigang at pinasyal rin nila kami around the city.

At Nick's place, ang ganda ng bahay ni Nick.Parang yung sa movies lang yung set up, yung chill ka lang.

Kentucky Kingdom!!!!

At the end of the day, it's not just about the money, the memorable experiences, the fun but the life's greatest lesson that you'll treasure.

SAN DIEGO, CALIFORNIA

Sea World

Coronado

         

Disneyland

USS Midway

Del Mar Fair

I just want to thank you mama and papa for allowing me to realize my own potential and for all the support that both of you provided me for all over the years.And God for giving me the opportunity to turn my dreams into reality and lived it!

My US Work and Travel Journey

Moving from plane to plane made me more excited.What's gonna be like in the US.The weather, the food, the people, the city, the streets....

And finally now from Manila to Louisville Kentucky!!!

In this voyage I gained new friends from different nations, shared our food, tried to speak our language, cracked some jokes, had fun no matter if you're black,white or brown...

I do believe that this is the essence of the cultural exchange program enjoying similarities and accepting differences.

One of the biggest challenge I faced is leaving away with my family, and it's my first time to be away from them as long as 3 months.The mere thought of doing my own laundry,cooking my own food and handling my own expenses make me feel sick.

Then the most exciting part of this program is the TRAVEL!Because I have the chance to visit the places which I just commonly seen in movies.I have the chance to explore Louisville!!

First day sa Louisville, sobrang lamig!!

 Natatandaan ko day off namin ito,tapos dahil nga may bus pass kami na unlimited naman,nag roadtrip kami,tapos pag may magandang lugar or unique na restaurant kaming nakita bumababa kami sa bus,then sakay ulit ng bus pag tapos.Sayang din kasi yung binayad namin sa bus pass for whole month na yun.😂😂😂

With my Roomies! ♥

Annie's 20th birthday celebration!!!🎂🎁🎊🎉

Motivation wall made by yours truly!🙋💟☝

Marbyn's 19th birthday suprise!!🎁🎂🎈🎉

Isa sa sobrang namimiss ko sa US ay yung pag shopping at mga pagkain.

Churchill Downs with Kimmy

Exploring Louisville Downtown!!!

The Big Four Bridge!

I remember when I was talking to my mom on skype and I kept telling her that I couldn’t believe I was here and I couldn’t believe I had the opportunity to experience all that. I was telling myself to remember each moment, and as much as I’d like to capture every step of the trip on camera, I found myself being in a state of awe so often that I forgot about the camera. I found it extremely overwhelming that at age 19, I was able to come and lived in United States (even if it was just for 3 months)  and see all the beautiful places. It was something I definitely wanted to remember forever, and it probably will be remembered forever. 

Until then,
~M♥

Summer Work and Travel Experience

Travelling and working in the United States was one of the best summer experience I've ever had. It made me understand who I am and what I want to be few years from now. It change me and mold me in different ways.There are'nt enough words to describe how it was and what I felt in my 3months stay abroad.And for my love in this blog, I'll just post a bit of my summer work and travel highlights.

Before departing here in Ph,there's a lot of what if's, and random negative thoughts racing through my mind. What if I got denied on my visa,what if there's something wrong with my medical,what if I will be hold in the immigration,what if I can't answer the question of the immigration officer correctly,what if I'm not good enough,what if I cannot make it etc etc..

In that moment all I need is encouragement and support but those people I'm expecting to support me, made me feel more coward and dumb.

I just don't know what to do and I feel like running far far away.I don't know I feel pressured because I know they're expecting from me.

And I hate it,when they think of I'm doing this because I envy my sister to the point that I want to do all the things that she's doing.No,no, no It's not that what they think, I know we have thr same school and with the same field of career,like this is a whole crap.They're thinking na tigilan na itong malaking kalokohan,tama na yang panggagaya.No, this is too much for me,tama na yung hindi ko pagkuha ng course na tourism,dahil na rin sa mga unencouraging comments nila.This will never stop me,working and travelling abroad have always been one of my greatest dream.And I'm just taking the opportunity and also it will be beneficial for my chosen career.

They said I can't do it and as if they're trying to hold me back. I just prove them wrong.Too much drama, I just want to rant.Yan kasi yung mga bagay na tumatakbo sa isipan ko before ako umalis.

So yeah, I've met people that I could barely imagine I'll ever met,earned skils and improved the old one's,went to places I'd never been, and of course gained experience that I will treasure and will stay on my heart.

TEAM EMBASSY SUITES, Here we are waiting for our food.

Habang naglilinis selfie muna,minsan nga natutulog pa kami sa mga vacant rooms.

Our faces when we received our first pay cheque.

At the balcony,sobrang ganda ng view sa lugar na ito.

Omar's birthday,kagulo kami sa break room.Eto lang yung tanging picture na kasama ko si Lorena,sya yung parang nanay na namin don.

Hugo!!Shulaa!! One of my craziest co-worker.Hindi sya marunong mag english pero hindi yun naging barrier para maging kaibigan namin sya.

This is when Gilberto our supervisor drive us home.Super bait rin nitong si Gilberto kahit may pagka baliw.

With Brandy Cardwell, the most coolest and awesome supervisor!

Sa rooftop ng hotel, actually bawal talaga pumunta dyan.Tumakas lang kami.hahaha

With the laundry peeps!!!

Can you spot me???Mukang maliit lang yung hotel namin,pero weeks ang tinagal bago ko nasaulo yung mga pasikot-sikot dyan.

With Tasha,sa front office sya.Sobrang friendly at bait nya rin.She's the biggest fan of Manny Pacquiao,gustong gusto nya nga pumunta dito sa Pinas e.

With Omar Alfaro, excutive housekeeping manager namin sya, pero seryoso right from the start medyo ayoko at aloof ako sa kanya.Di ko alam kung bakit,pero ganun din yung mga kasama ko.Tuwing day off nya nga,super saya namin dahil walang pang-gulo kahit yung mga regular employee doon super nagiging hyper pag wala sya.

Kahit na medyo bossy sya o strict,masasabi ko pa rin na isa sya sa mga nakatulong sa akin para ipush ko pa yung sarili ko at maibigay yung best ko.He teach me what to do and he give me ideas on how to have a better working pattern.  He also gave some tips/advices on how to work by using time management effectively and efficiently.

With my boss,the housekeeping manager Tim Ribich, hindi katulad ng mga ibang manager na super seryoso at intimidating.Si Tim sobrang bait nya at laging naka smile.Sobra ko syang ina-admire kung paano nya i-handle yung mga problema sa hskpng department at yung pakikitungo nya sa mga empleyado.

What made Tim such an exceptional boss was the fact he was very competent at his job, empathetic and compassionate.

To work as a housekeeper is not as easy as you think. Because in order for you to gain money you need to perform cleaning duties In my first week I learned that great work are indeed performed not by strength but by perseverance and that's why I'm very thankful to my co-workers and interns for cheering me up during my stressful days.

This program opened the gate for me to a different world.And I don't regret the choice I've made.America was, is, and will always be a wonderful dream that doesn't seem so impossible to achieve.

Embassy Suites Louisville, taught me a lot of things essential for my chosen career.Everything in Embassy Suites Louisville will surely be missed.

Thank you with all my heart.You guys were part of my best summer experience.

xoxo,

~ Morela

The people who tell me that I'm such a good person don't really know me.

I hate going to school because it feels jungle out there.I'm so lazy and I don't do anything about it.I expect my grades to be high and yet again,I don't do anyhthing about it.I wanted to be a good friend but I'm good at ignoring them until they ask me for my help.I'm such a burden for my parents because I can't do anything that will make them proud.I like kids most of the time,but they annoy me.I'd rather be alone most of the time than listening to other people's opinion to someone they don't even know(well most of the people I know are like that;judgemental little pricks) .I hate when someone keeps on pretending to be Mr/Ms know-it-all.I cuss inside my head but you will never hear me cuss out loud.I hate myself and think I don't matter but at the same time I love myself too much that I could marry myself.I don't understand half of the things I am saying and I am sarcastic.Seriously when people praise,it's really hard for me to say "thanks" and just accept the compliment because I look at myself and ask "why would you appreciate someone like me?".

But then I found myself trying to evaluate my opinion about me.I'm not that bad,I'm just lonely and haven't found the right person yet who will understang me.

2014

Wow,it's New Year again.Sobrang bilis talaga ng panahon.And it's been a year since the last time I posted something here....2014 is now over

Random rants for 2014

1.Family

2014 was not a perfect year for my family,before the year ends umalis si Ate papunta ng US.I know na kahit aso't pusa 

kami,it's just so weird that I feel so empty.Siguro nasanay lang talaga ako na nandyan sya lagi.As the days passed,we have our ups and downs.At honestly naging mahirap yun para sakin dahil wala rin dito si ate.There were some fights,misunderstandings,hard feeling,but eventually it all worked out.And I'm sad because never ko na-imagine na mangyayari yun in the first place.Im still kind of hoping that I'm just having a bad dream.But during those times na I feel so shattered,I found out who the best people were.I never felt so loved and supported in my entire life.I'm so thankful for those people who made things bearable when they weren't bearable.And of course kay Lord na di ako pinabayaan despite sa mga pagkukulang ko.

2.Dark times

There are times when I burst out crying in my room,and suddenly I realized no one truly knows how unhappy I am.Like I just want to spill my heart out and say how I feel.2014 was an emotional year for me.It left me baffled and bruised,but I have come out stronger because of it.I am ready for 2015 for better appreciation to the things and the people I know I can loose.

3.School

Well there's nothing really interesting about it.Hindi pa rin ako nagiging scholar and I think I still need to work hard for it this semester.Gusto ko maging scholar because I want to make my parents proud.I want to repay them for everything they did for me.And I want prove them na kaya ko maging scholar.And this 2014 I hope I can do that.

4.Body Image/Confidence

I've always had this issue since then.I've always had insecurities about my body and my face.How I feel so dumb and ugly with others.Like there's nothing really special or interesting about me.I'm always afraid moving out of my comfort zone,I don't know maybe because I'm terrified to make mistake and be a laughing stock just like before.Honestly I've always preach of loving yourself and to not listen to society telling what is beautiful or not.And believe that were all beautiful no matter what they say.But I always had this issue and how I wish this year I will  learn to accept my imperfections and be more confident about myself.

5.Book
Whenever things are getting rough,I found myself wanting to escape.To somewhere far away.The easiest thing to do that is to read a book.Eventhough I have a high grade of glasses at mas masakit sa mata ko ang magbasa ng matagal it doesn't keep me from doing what I want.And it was just a great way to escape and put yourself in the shoes of each character.

This post is kind of a mess.Gusto ko pa sana ituloy ito pero sobrang sakit na ng mata ko.But maybe next time I will be posting something that's a bit more fun hindi nakakastress.If I don't get too lazy.